Life update

Hey everyone! I hope everyone had a happy, safe, and fun-filled fourth of July!

I have tons of things to do, but this sounded more fun. I cannot begin to express how much life can change in just a few moments, but most of you know that already. This last weekend, I was able to have the opportunity to meet my boyfriend’s 10 year old daughter. I know for some of you, that doesn’t seem like such a big deal, but to me it’s a huge deal.

Introducing someone to your children is a decision that can’t be taken lightly. I am a consistent person in my partner’s life, and so is she, but when it comes down to it, it will always be her first, and that is how I want it to be and arguably, how it should be. We have been together one year, and the time he has with her is not in abundance, so sharing that time with someone else has to be one of the hardest steps to take, but could also be one of the best experiences.

I was so nervous to meet her, as she is such a big deal to him, and she’s 10. Ten-year-olds are extremely perceptive, smart, and filterless, and to me this is intimidating. I then had to tap into my teacher brain and ask myself how I’ve been able to create, build, and maintain relationships with my students. Although the risk is different, it’s still risk. I had to confront my fear of us not getting along, thus likely ending my relationship, or us hitting it off and being so scared and excited for what comes next. Not to mention-it was her birthday!

When we picked her up, my heart was beating out of my chest, I think I stopped breathing, and sweating was just a thing that happened. She got in the car, and for a solid 7 hours, we talked about animals, glitter, slime, yelp reviews, and bugs. She was relentless in exploring every single living creature that existed on his parents’ farm, and showing me every single one of them.

After only an hour or so of meeting me, she was already sitting next to me on the couch, even resting her head on my shoulder while she played with her new birthday presents. She is the sweetest thing. In fact, she got birthday money, and said she had too much and offered to split it with her dad…ahh…she will of course, understand someday that offering to split your money with someone will not be as easily thought of.

The second aspect of this was seeing him as a father and how people adapt, change, and wear many faces. It went straight to my heart to see him just love her by pulling her hair back out of her face so she can look for bugs and just watch her go a million miles per hour searching for anything of interest on the farm. Being able to see how much they love each other was an unexplainable experience for me. Our relationship dynamic is now changing, and I’m excited to see where all of this goes, wherever that may lead. Realistically, I know everything has the potential to derail, change directions, or grow in unison, but for now, this is good.

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